Back in the spring of 2006, God put a strong call on my life. I argued with Him (while crying, laughing and driving down a dangerous stretch of highway). I told Him He definitely had the wrong girl. But, God can be persistent (in case you didn’t know that). Fast forward four and a half…
Category Archives: fear
{day 17} The lie that you aren’t good enough
Imagine you are having dinner with the President. You are honored to have been invited. You chose a knock-out dress and of course, matching shoes. You told all your friends and family about this special invitation. You are proud of yourself for the intense conversation you managed to have with the President over the first…
Not wasting a story
How did a girl of nineteen, mama to two under two, take on another, wounded and broken, as her own? God’s grace. How did a family grow, through the pain and the twisted knife of fate, closer together rather than achingly apart? God’s grace. How did a woman break free from the bondage of silence…
There’s no place like home
There are days when I want nothing more than to curl up on the bench swing bolted to my grandparent’s dock, with a hot cup of tea and the blue fuzzy blanket, and watch the sun come up over the Chesapeake Bay. But, that is not possible right now. There are four teenagers and a…
Fear Not
Fear wraps sticky tentacles around my heart. I try to wrench free of the grasp in my own strength. I fret, worry, run through worst case scenarios and forget that this wrestling against the fear is sin. God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though…
Flesh and Blood and Tears
It was a burnt bridge. Charred by the chasm of bitterness, hatred and anger that had simmered for years. “Good” reasons to maintain my unforgiving heart. I had been let down, hurt, abused, disappointed, neglected, abandoned and wounded by this person. This person that was supposed to protect me from all those things. My dad….
Is this my kid?
He is his father’s child. In possession of the calm-no-matter-the-circumstance sort of way that is stable and solid. His voice on the phone did not even waver as he said “Mama, I can’t see anything out of my left eye“. I had to ask if he was serious, such normal tone and timbre. He was…
So, what happened to homeschooling?
This summer has been a roller coaster ride of indecisiveness. Confusion. Soul-searching. Heart break. On my face before my Creator asking “why” and then remembering it is often not my place to ask. {Situations that I can’t share here that shook my faith and made my soul ache but at the same time brought my…
How long must I wait?
I am battling an anxious heart. Not over anything major or even specific. But an unsettled, on-my-way-to-where-I’m-supposed-to-be type of place. Yet, I don’t even know where I’m supposed to be. I think I do. My hubby and I disagree about the route to take. And, I ask. How long, God? How long before you give…
Radically Changed
She was pretty. She was fast. She was fun. She was purple (Tungsten grey to be exact). She was an impulsive, reckless choice. She was part of my American dream. I really thought I had arrived, way back in May 2006, when the hubby and I purchased my pretty, fast, fun and purple Mustang with…
